Aurora, Colorado

My heart is broken by all the things happening in our world right now.


I feel lost and alone and insecure. I feel like I don't want to leave my house again. Ever.


Of course I have left my house and gone to class but not without fear in the back of my mind. People are bad. People are dangerous. 


You know how your mom used to tell you "The whole world is not out to get you?" She was lying. I mean maybe not the whole world - but some people are.


I want someone else here to protect me. To tell me he'll keep me safe. To tell me I won't be going to movies anytime soon - even though I already know that and wouldn't argue one bit.




The world is too scary to be in by yourself.

Just an Encouraging Word From Me To You

So I've read on several different blogs lately about those of you doing no-spanking challenges where you try to go a certain amount of time without receiving a punishment spanking


Some of you lofty goal-setters have set the bar high with a no punishment spanking for an entire year challenge (Chelsea and Christina)...


Others of you have opted for the one month or one week challenge...


And still others I've heard you toss around the possibility of going one day...(Kay....Stormy?)




Well, I'm just here to tell you that I believe in you. You can totally do it no matter what goal you set. But I just have to say....

I'm totally going to win ;)




Love you all!! <3

July 4th 2014

I decided I want to get married on the 4th of July.




I want fireworks to go off when we kiss

That's all.

Vanilla Post...or Is it?

First of all I just want to ask, which one of my posts is NOT vanilla?!




I like Vanilla. A lot. You could say I love it. Vanilla ice cream, vanilla yogurt, vanilla shakes, vanilla milk, vanilla bean coffee. I must always use REAL vanilla extract when cooking. Never that fake knock-off stuff. If its not real vanilla, I can always tell. I like vanilla scented candles, lotions, scnetsy, even my favorite eye shadow is called "vanilla cream."


I LOVE vanilla everything except in my marriage and my sex. HA! And I don't even know for sure about those two things - I'm just guessing.


It's weird to me that I like vanilla because I'd say my personality makes me seem like more of a rocky road double chocolate chunk with sherbet, whip cream and a cherry kinda gal.


I'm loud and boisterous and I lead mischief a lot. On April Fools I got all my classmates together and we went over to my professors house at night and chalked beautiful pictures all over his driveway. I also wrote a three page letter to the president of our college and got a bunch of people to sign it to get a different professor fired. (And if you just started feeling bad for that professor - don't. If you knew even half the things he did you would have been the first one in line to get him fired!)


With mischief like that you would think I would like strawberry carmel fudge drizzle with nuts and sprinkles.


But I don't.


I like vanilla. And I have vanilla posts on a vanilla blog about a not-very vanilla subject with some not-very vanilla friends.


And I like it that way.


It's sort of like French Vanilla.